I have been so eager for the new tour I even thought (or hoped if you like) that this whole death scheme was part of a brilliant PR project and all through the memorial service i wondered what kind of a come back he was mischievously planning to make.. Either he was going to enter the scene from the back of a curtain singing to some meaningful song or come out from the coffin with thriller. I cannot describe the disappointment I felt when Paris started to cry, which made me believe that he really was gone. Surely, a lot of people would be resentful for using death as PR, but i would so prefer that he was messing with us.. I sometimes still believe ( make believe rather..) that he couldn’t take it and hated the idea of the new tour -what with him hating tours – and ran away for good.. I guess that’s what denial is, but so be it :’ )…

Dirty Diana is such a sexy song. I agree with Simonne’s comment on that. And yeah, Human Nature a real big one for me.

I can see how people would be cynical of the fans and their grief. Especially if they just didn’t ever click with his music, or saw him from the outside and as the tabloids reported him, the way many did. I also think some people have a point on the media saturation – it’s unbelievable. I couldn’t even handle going near the TV or even the internet for too long yesterday because it was the same things over and over. I will just grieve in my own way, and know I’m sharing that feeling of loss with millions of people who felt as passionately about him as children and/or adults.

Here was a guy who was such a recluse, who hardly made a public statement ever, and yet because his music was part of so many people’s indiviudal soundtracks, there is a desire to revisit the music and recall that period of your life when you listend (and relistened) to the songs.

My favourite tracks? Dirty Diana and Human Nature.

It’s easy to be cyncial of people who (like you Ange) are pretty shattered at the moment. But I’d say most of us have musicians who for whatever illogical reason feel a connection with.

So put on the CDs and let the emotions go Ange!

I must add, I can moonwalk

And I just found a link to that book I read about him, forgot it was actually by him. http://www.amazon.com/Moon-Walk-Michael-Jackson/dp/0385247125/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1245988862&sr=1-1 That’s where I got a lot of my information. I think I seriously read it when I was nine or ten. But I don’t know if I still have a copy in a box somewhere back home. I hope so.

I also remember staying up to watch the 1984 Grammys when he won a record 8 Awards (oddly though he missed out on song of the year – “Every Breath You Take” won)

In the US itunes he now has 42 of the top 100 singles, and the top 9 selling albums (he has the top 16 albums on Amazon). That’s pretty hard to even credit. For someone who stopped caring about his music after Bad, I still gotta say that is an incredible achievment.

I was still in shock yesterday, I teared up on and off all day but there was still a wall. Well, It’s just come down tonight. I’m sobbing like a little kid. He’s really gone Thanks all for reading this and commenting. It means a lot to me! xox